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Mama of Sanctuary Forest Garden
Mama of Sanctuary Forest Garden
Let us be honest with ourselves. We all are wounded hurt people. We all need to be healed.
Healing is an every day commitment to self.
Whether you go into prayers, contemplation, silence, solitude, examination (what works for you) … ... in the beginning and the end of the day... so that we will not hurt self, others and the Nature around us.
Don't wait till 20, 30 or 40 years later, the amount of hurts, wounds... that is in us... needed to be healed is like a mountain piled up. The courage to look within is never easy at the beginning, however, truly, we find relief, freedom as we heal...
As I begin my story on healing, now living a semi-hermit life, I commit myself to a more balanced life including healing myself and my husband. I entered into healing myself after I was converted at 21 years old in Christianity. Before, Buddhism has already begun in me the healing journey as a little girl who was traumatised. Never did I know that I went into the dance movement psychotherapy field as a therapist. Then, my healing in therapy continued in my body, mind and heart in my training and therapy. Returning again to silent contemplation retreats, I healed spirituality in wholeness with my body, mind, heart, soul and spirit, integrated and matured. Imagine, there still lies residue even though I walked the healing journey all these years. Not forgetting, we get hurt in our normal daily life and thus it adds onto the piles again. The healing I went through was stages by stages. Until I know what my soul & heart desire is - to live a balanced life in the countryside, in the Nature, choosing a semi-hermit life. This took me 3 years to discern before I said, 'Yes' to my semi-hermit life.
I commit myself to contemplation, solitude, resting in silence and stillness, creativity in art, songs, dance, movement, play, cooking, writing, gardening, in the Nature - the birth of our Sanctuary Forest Garden and that is what works for me. The forest teaches me much about life and about myself. I move in rhythm with the forest, my husband and myself.
The key to healing self is self-awareness and self-knowledge.
The key to healing is the openness of our heart and soul to embrace the truth about ourselves.
The key to healing is having the humility in true acceptance of who we truly are.
The key to healing is embracing every part of who we are.
The key to healing is to be kind, gentle, tender, compassionate and loving towards self.
The key to healing is to love self unconditionally.
For me, the key to healing is also to let God heal me.
It is an every day discovery, every day commitment, every day courage to arise to healing ourselves.
Because we never know what residue is still there.
Because we never know what will happen today.
Because we never know that what happened in the past hurts us until we are ready to see it.
It always hurts to know the truth.
I am grateful that I have the 'skills' in deeply listening within and turning inward, after years of the journey of healing myself through dance movement psychotherapy, authentic movement and contemplation. I am grateful that I have people I can always talk to - my husband and my collaborator, both are my spiritual companions in life and my community includes my Godma and a few close friends. We need a spiritual companion whom we can talk to.
Committing to semi-hermit life is not just my soul and heart desire but also that I find balance in my life; and when I go out in service to serve others, I can be in full loving presence. We first need to take care of ourselves before we can fully take care of others.
* If you feel reading this, you like to listen deeply to yourself, to become more aware of who you are, a deeper self-knowledge, or discerning what your heart and soul desired life is, Nita and Elizabeth offer Spiritual Wholistic Life-Coaching in our Forest Ministry other than personally guided contemplation retreats, spiritual direction and training, welcome to get in touch with us. *
Shalom! Blessings! Love To you!