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I am a Hermit, Mystic & Mama.
I am a Hermit, Mystic & Mama.
How my life constantly awakens to LOVE.
Falling in Love.
Coming home again & again to Love.
When we have lived a life full of fear and lack of love most of the time,
it is hard to know LOVE and to deeply love self and others in our lives.
That's most of the time how I grew up
most of the time in the environment of fear and 'tough' love.
When my journey awakens me to LOVE,
to my beloved Divine God,
I undergo healing. awakening and transformation till now.
I feel blessed that God is constantly in the midst of the difficult period I'm going through and seeing what is going around the world,
it is easy to go into cynicism, bitterness, despair, disillusion, hopelessness...
Yet God helps me to see goodness, beauty, hope, light, love...in everything.
Transforming from fear to LOVE.
I find myself falling in love again and again.
Whether is myself, my husband, family, friends and people I encounter.
Living in Nature with the Wild,
The Wild lights up the Love in me ALL the time.
Waking up in the morning,
listening to the song of birds,
witnessing the birds in our Forest Garden,
my heart is touched by LOVE.
LOVE opens the gateway of my heart to flow.
Last night, as the fire burnt in the wood stove.
The silence engulfed the living room
as Jeroen and I rested in silence.
Gratitude falls upon me.
For the warmth we are grateful for.
As our house is breaking apart unexpectedly,
like the CV heater no longer works efficiently,
we rely on a tiny CV electrical heater to warm us.
We were grateful for the leftover dry wood.
Jeroen cuts them and we can heat up the living room,
to warm ourselves.
We had this conversation yesterday.
I can go into despair for the cold winter gets me.
It is foggy with no sight of sun these days.
Thankful for the honesty we have with each other
on what is going on within us.
Homeless sometimes we feel.
Though we have a roof over our head,
the house is so cold.
Our clothes are moist and damp,
even though we dried them.
We feel like a homeless only with a roof over our head.
(I am not saying that we are much worse than the homeless, in fact, we become more compassionate to those who are homeless because of what we are going through. My heart goes out to them even more..)
If I have no LOVE in my heart and God in my life,
I find it really hard.
I am grateful for the Wild,
to light up the light in me.
Jeroen and I could laugh about our predicament.
And the humour in us ease the tension.
Every sunshines she shines,
we are most grateful for a beautiful day.
Yesterday was a beautiful day.
I learn to appreciate and treasure the every little moment in life.
For what may come tomorrow,
we do not know.
Yet whenever we are out in the forest garden,
in the beautiful sun working,
We feel uplifted all the time.
We were exploring on a spot in the forest for a potential pond.
The joy and excitement I echoed loudly in the early morning of our quiet forest garden when we discovered water.
Because we want to have a natural pond.
Moment like this is a precious gift.
Rejoicing the joy together.
As a couple.
Shalom! Peace-FuLL! Bless-FuLL ! Love-FuLL To you!