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Mama of Sanctuary Forest Garden
Mama of Sanctuary Forest Garden
Life is never static however fluid in flow. What evolves yesterday is never the same today.
Though I announced that 31 December is the mark of the new life, and the chapter close of the old life. As each day is a process, unfolding, I come to see my new life begins on 8 December. It is my 25th Baptism Anniversary. 25 years! O wow! How time has flowed in my life that I have been transformed not only just 25 years ago at 21 but every moment till today. 8 December is also very significant to me - The Immaculate Conception. Mother Mary has always been very special and dear to my heart.
So I know it's time to say goodbye earlier than I know. Having gone through a few transitions, not small, however big in my life, I'm truly grateful that in life, I have an opportunity to die to the old and welcome the new.
Yesterday as we were in a bookstore, I instinctively walked to the magazine shelf, to check out 'Flow' or 'Happinez', the two magazines I find myself drawn to at times. I normally look out for the English version. Viola! I always believe in synchronicity. Nothing is ever coincidence. Happinez has an international magazine and is featuring people who inspire me, Irvan Yalom, Arun Ghandi and Amma.
I actually wrote to say 'It's time to say good bye' on facebook 2 weeks ago. Somehow, I accidentally deleted the whole text when I was about to post. It was the most heartfelt moment personal note I wanted to share. I was like 'What! Gone!' Feeling frustrated at one moment that it was gone and at that moment, I knew I had to let it go. Perhaps it is meant to be written for self, to articulate them in words. Nevertheless, as the days went by, I realise I was supposed to blog. And finally, while reading about Irvin Yalom, I smiled. 'Yes, it is time to write.' I'm inspired to finally pen it down. He affirms my new path I'm embarking.
The excerpt of the interview stood out for me from Happinez and I have always truly believe:
'My mission as a therapist is to help people gain insight into themselves. In fact, it's a kind of awakening. I'm convinced that self-knowledge makes your life better. That goes for my patients, but also for me as a therapist. I've always objected to the idea of a practitioner as a distant, neutral or objective person. I discovered that sharing something of my personal life made the treatment more effective. It's nearly always the relationship that offers the most healing, not the treatment. If there's trust and openness, patients can learn to apply that to other relationships too. At the end of the day, I see therapy as a kind of puzzle that you try to solve together.' ~Irvin Yalom
His words comforts my heart, soul and whole being. His words resonates what I have always practised. His words affirms what I believe in and have advocated. My way of serving, ministering, and being has been transformed in where I now fully integrate the spirituality into my healing consultation, ministry, spiritual direction, life-coaching, workshops, retreats and training. That is to say, wholistically balance in body, mind, heart, soul and spirit.
This is one of the aspects of my new life in terms of professional work.
Another part of my life is my Divine Dance to my new life personally with my husband, Jeroen. Yes, it is a dance. Not any kind of dance - a Divine Sacred Dance with Mother Earth. Owning the Divine in me has been a 3 years process. Not easy. Unpacking the old belief system as in dying to the outer skin. Embracing what is truly in me. We are all Divine. The Divine is in us. To bravely, courageously write it and say it here. I had one of the most beautiful retreats in KL with Fr Sebastian Painadath, SJ. How beautiful where each one of us, our soul awakens to the Divine in each one of us, meeting the Divine in each one of us. It's like truly home not just to self but also with others. How beautiful it is to witness not just in self that we come home but in every one. Each one of us is walking each other home in the retreat. Such pure bliss and joy! The Divine love in each one of us is so infinite, unconditional and is everywhere. In Ignatius Spirituality, it is about 'Seeing God in ALL things.' Yes in ALL things!
So I am saying good bye. 8 December is the last day of the existence of facebook page and you find it no longer exists after. Twitter is gone. I now focus what I find more life-giving in social media - You Tube, Pin Interest, Blog and my Website. I can also be connected in LinkedIn.
I continue to bring inspiration to you through these social media platform. I will resume my 'bee' activities in March as I rest, prepare ourselves for the move to New Life during the winter period in December till February. I hope to stay in touch with you. See you around! I bless you peace, love and light always!
Shalom! Blessings! Love To you!