I grow, play and heal with FOOD!
I am a Hermit, Mystic & Mama.
I am a Hermit, Mystic & Mama.
How sometimes a 'crisis' happens to wake us up.
If it didn't happen, we never see or learn the important lesson it has to teach us.
It can turn out to be a 'Blessings in Disguise'.
I see the meaning of the phrase 'Blessings in Disguise' more and more in our life.
Each time when we or I go through a difficult period or time, I often find myself arise from the 'darkness' or dark place and see the light at the end of the silver lining all the time.
Not that I had never been depressed before or in a very low mood or form, I had and have been there. And in life, we can fall into the dark hole again. When I do, it is a reminder to love myself even more. Nita responded to me with a loving email, reminding me to fill the dark hole with LOVE.
This year I am aware I'm entering into a deeper journey to deeply loving self. I arise from the darkness by deeply embracing and embodying DIVINE LOVE in me.
Grateful and thankful my husband, Jeroen commits this journey together with me. To give me the space to myself to grow our food forest, love and energy into our new home.
How I come to see when I give time and space by taking time off, I am able to give time to BE.
I know I cannot split myself into too many tasks. A professional work and growing our food forest garden. I step down from my profession to give full time to our home, I even take time off from giving spiritual direction to retreatants too after discerning. A year of time off totally for self and to our new home. It was not easy. With no income at all and totally reliant on Jeroen, I can only trust and move forward. Dealing with my own insecurity and fear. This process transforms me into the Art of becoming Self-Sufficient.
How giving time to learning to build eco-friendly house taught me much - about living and leaving life with less carbon footprint.
In the past few years, I learn with my husband, Jeroen, that we can only Walk, Live and Be in our own life.
The more we go through our process, the more we find creative ways of living, being and building our new home with eco-friendly creative solutions that work for us. It is a process and cannot be rushed. Sometimes I feel the urgency to rush - but that has its own consequence if we do. It is relatively something very new to us and takes time to discover the new way of doing, living and being.
The whole journey also brings both of us closer, lots of internal shift and transformation in us, lots of growth, taking time to have honest conversations and sharing our deepest fears and struggles. When we do, we find ourselves able to move forward together a the end of each conversation.
Moving home is a process.
Transition and adjustment is another.
Remodelling into an eco-friendly home is next.
Living a total different Way of Being is a huge change.
We choose this out of love for ourselves but it does not mean there is no challenges in it. For we are human and have our own tendencies (in another word, shortcoming, weaknesses…), by understanding self deeply, loving even this part of us, we grow to become fully loving human, transforming by Divine Love in us.
Shalom! Peace-FuLL! Bless-FuLL ! Love-FuLL To you!