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Mama of Sanctuary Forest Garden
Mama of Sanctuary Forest Garden
Why I left both my professional fields and walk my own path.
When it was a clear sign for me to leave my professional field, not once, but twice, in my life, the process I had to undergo was not easy. One in my early 30s, and another in my 40s.
When I see enough of what was going on, I could no longer bear anymore and had to choose to walk out. I am someone who cannot compromise and go against my values and consciences. No matter how hard I fought, I was always being 'attacked'. Not once but twice where my integrity was at stake. I no longer wanted to fight anymore because I was so tired and fatigue. How the world is functioning and doing, I do not want to compromise. Many said, 'You have to. This is how the world is.' To me, my ethnics, conscience and integrity is more important than having to be of this world.
Not many I shared my stories with as there was nothing glamorous about. I open up more as a motivation and encouraging someone that you are not alone.
I met many more now who have the courage and dare to walk their own as I chose to walk mine. Whether you call them kindred souls but one clear fact is they know if they take the compromised path, they know where they would end up in. There is no other way around and the only way is to step out and walk our own path.
Walk, Live & Be.
I stumbled again and again on the rocks until I was awakened by my soul. Swayed by fears of no income. Swayed by fear of not having enough. Nita, who walks and lives her life, gave me courage to walk my way. It is a no joke that I had to undergo my processes not once but twice. I am grateful I am at peace within, healed of the hurts, pain, fear, disappointments, disillusion...of so many years and most of all, the courage to walk the path of freedom.
Not many know that it was also became quite challenging in my marriage. Because I am no longer the same Elizabeth I used to be. The deeper I enter into my process, the more I am clear what my path is going to be. To be honest, if my husband said, 'No.' I would walk out and go on my own way. I was prepared to be on my own two feet.
For in God, there is no fear. It is not the first time I chose and walked my path alone, not being understood, accepted... and yet I survived! Not forgetting I am a trauma survivor too. I survived my traumas. Again not many know this part of me.
Life changes as we change perhaps you may say that. And there is no turning back.
If you ask me right now, 'How is my transition?' A friend asked and one of Jeroen's brother also asked him how is life different now.
My answer is, 'TRUE FREEDOM'.
Jeroen and I conversed a lot about our processes. We are very grateful for the Forest home though the house needs a major renovation because it was so old when we bought it, we are aware there is a lot of work needed to be done. And recently, we also discovered lots more things are breaking down - unexpected leakage in the cellar and living room, an example. That is our challenge. Jeroen drew inspiration from the fallen apple tree. Even the tree is a difficult position, it survives all the odds and challenges and still growing till today.
During these 3 months, we took time first to heal ourselves, rest, recuperate, recover and restored after a long period of coping with both of his parents' illnesses and returned to heaven within 2 years. It was heavy on our psychic, emotion, body and soul. We, first, take care of ourselves and each other. Then we take one step at a time to work on the house and grow our Sanctuary Forest Garden.
We believe 'Alles kom goed.' All will be well and shall be well. As my father-in-law's left his last wisdom behind and reminding us if we stumble upon a rock.
And it is true in our life - All has been well.
Shalom! Blessings! Love To you!